Home... AGAIN

After spending another 4 wonderful days in the hospital, they let me out today. I did promise to make my doc some fudge though, does anyone know how to make fudge? Help MOM!
I walked in the house, and felt a sadness. I left for the hospital on the last night Colin was here for the week and some of his toys were still laying out. Then I came down to the computer and here sits the desk he sat at everytime he came over. I miss him.. I'm going to miss his hugs and laughter and watching him grow up on a daily basis. I miss Jen. I miss having someone just to call or go shopping with or just hang out with, even though these were not her favorite things to do at times.
I'm weepy today, mainly because i have so much medicaiton in my body and i'm sick and exhausted. But I'm happy too. Happy that Jen and Colin have found a new life with Keith and can make a happy family and home there in South Bend. With portable oxygen that only lasts for 4 hours, i guess i won't be going there to see them anytime soon. I'll have to let God heal my physical and emotional body once step at a time.